“Everybody is working at their edge.” ( Stephen Levine)
For years I studied the work of grief councilor and Buddhist Stephen Levine. Stephen worked directly with people who were dying or had suffered a loss. People who were dying of AYDs and people who were reeling from the loss of a child.
I stumbled upon his work when I was in my twenties and even though I hadn’t faced any significant deaths in my life I was drawn to listen and re-listen to his ideas. The ideas in his work were big enough to contain my own swallowed grief.
For I was walking a razor’s edge. Putting myself in negative scenarios that were risky to myself and others. And even though I knew it was wrong, I had no idea why I was behaving the way I was. But every day I got up and thought I would be different. And yet “my best thinking” took me down the same bumpy road.
The idea of “Everybody’s working at their edge” helped move me in a new direction.
And it helped me remember the people I meet along the way are working at their edge too.
If I place this thought at the front of my mind at the beginning of the day I can stop reacting and being offended by everything.
Also, I began to apply the sentiment to myself. Wherever I am in my journey I’m working at my edge too: at the edge of comprehending new thoughts, new ideas, and trying to unhook old stories. Try as I might, I can’t bully myself into new understanding. I have to slowly open to it.
Today we are going through a lot of uncertainty and unchartered fast-changing waters.
Another razor’s edge.
We are mourning the loss of the way life was.
We are anxious about what we might become.
This thinking is true most days in ordinary times, but during a pandemic, it’s at a low boil every day.
So perhaps today we can be gentle with ourselves: loosen that grip of perfectionism that is choking us.
And have a wee bit of mercy for the edge we are now standing on!
If we do this perhaps we can go out into the world just for this day and meet more people with understanding rather than with accusations.
And when we revert back to our old ways ( which we will) perhaps we can brush off these errors with a feather, rather than an SOS pad.
Perhaps we can hold a hand to our heart and say, “There, there, darlin’ its a bit windy out here on this cliff.”
SPEAKING OF STORIES HERE ARE MY UPCOMING ONLINE WRITING CLASSES
MAPPING OUT YOUR LIFE STORY MAY 24th: ONE SPOT LEFT
“I teach people to let go of the doubt that plagues them when they sit down to write.”
Many of us right now are suffering from monkey mind.
Going from over productivity to complete exhaustion.
And now is a time so many of us want to tell our stories. But when we sit down to write we worry about not getting it perfect, or we second guess ourselves on what we want to say or we get overwhelmed by SOOO many ideas we end up stopping.
In this hands-on intuitive writing class, I will show you how to access your memories in a sensory way and get them mapped out on the page! It’s a lot of fun, safe, and for all levels of writers.
Mapping Out Your Life Story:
May 24th, 9-10:30 am SLIDING SCALE DONATION. ($40- 100) E-transfer email@example.com.
How To Meet Your Father:
A 90 minute class on how to rewrite the story of the father figures in your life!
June 7th, 9-10:30 am.SLIDING SCALE DONATION. ($40- 100) E-transfer firstname.lastname@example.org.